Death (Ultimate Rejection) by Trista Daniell #shortpoem

I’m in the awkward position of knowing two families that have failed me.

My mother and my father.

My father and my mother.

Together – created me.

Together – cast me away.

I found them.

….in love, I ran to them.

Visions in my mind prepared me for a triumphant return.

“Welcome home dear daughter….”

How I’ve longed to hear those words.

Instead, I live in deliberate isolation.

No attempts at restoration.

I am painfully – aware of my outcast status.

The eternal bastard. I smile and stuff the pain to a place only I can see.

My mother acknowledges but can’t deal. My father can’t deal so he won’t even acknowledge.

Even though I look just like the both of them.

Black sheep learn early….

We don’t expect much by way of love.

How can they love someone they refuse to see.

I watch them with jealous eyes. Siblings connected.

family ties.

Yet, I remain detached.

Known.

But unloved.

Do you know what it’s like to watch your parents love others when they’ve failed to love you?

Death.

3 thoughts on “Death (Ultimate Rejection) by Trista Daniell #shortpoem

  1. gwenniesgardenworld says:

    I am so sorry to hear this !!!! Shame on them, they don’t deserve children !!!! I just don’ t understand people like that. I cannot even begin to know how that feels ! But you are a beautiful young lady and I would be proud to have you as a daughter and so would many others !!!!

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    • Trista Daniell says:

      Thanks so much for your kind words. I’ve been blessed with a great adopted mom and wonderful friends and family who love me. I believe all things happen for a lesson & reason, there is purpose in the pain.

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      • gwenniesgardenworld says:

        I am happy to hear you have a good mom and family ! And I too believe everything happens for a reason, but not everyone wants to hear that. I wish you all the luck in the world !!

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