BUT GOD! But God brought me out! Like Moses led the Israelites, so He led me! Yes, He disciplined me. Yes, He made me face my ugly ways, ugly attitude, heck all my ugly stuff! He made me see and admit to my flakiness in Him. And let me know just how displeased He was with my hypocritical ways – especially to others in my life (Matthew 23:23-32). Either I was going to serve God wholeheartedly through the favorable times and the times of testing or I was not. There is NO in between (Revelation 3:15-16). Trust me, those who truly know God aren’t fooled by it anyway and God certainly was not! (1 John 2:3-6). Even worldly people can come to eventually see through it if you keep it up long enough because if nothing else, God will eventually expose you for the hypocrite you are. (Luke 12:1-3)
Today, I am a new woman in Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17). My life with Him is beautiful, gracious, peaceful, confident, joyful…filled with love. I am indeed still a work in progress as there will always be things for God to prune and make better as He grows me in His image and the fullness of His power – but I have come to a place I never thought I would be. 1. I love God like never, ever, before. I am in AWE of my Father! (Psalm 42:1) 2. I love myself and see the beauty in the individual God created! I don’t have to compete and compare myself with others out of jealousy/bitterness! I am who I am because God made me this way and I let Him work what He made to His will! (Psalms 139:14) 3. I believe and expect good things and miracles in my life! For a long time I only expected the negative, I didn’t believe in miracles and I was a total pessimist.
Yes I am one of “those people” who believe the miracles done in the bible are true and can actually be done today through God’s children if we are wholeheartedly devoted to Him! (John 14:12) This place, is a wondrous place. It’s amazing, lovely, so….just…awesome! To walk with God day in and day out – to know without a shadow of a doubt that He is with you and to be able to face the great things with Him is truly a favored place. Being able to accept His discipline in love, knowing it’s to better me, not to harm, condemn and keep me down, is a peaceful place and I am very pleased He allowed me to get here. God never gave up on me and nobody has EVER loved me like that. No. Not. Ever. (1 John 4:9-11)
So, I compel you, if you are in a place where things aren’t going your way and you find that old worldly self-creeping up…you find yourself wanting to rebel against God and refuse His correction/discipline in your life – STOP! Repent! Turn around and go back to the narrow road! The broad road only leads to destruction (Matthew 7:13-14). You only make it worse and prolong your time in the desert when you do these things. You will find yourself alone, broken, hopeless and filled with guilt; then, you will look back over it all and ask “what have I done”? When everything is taken from you –oh, it WILL be taken from you – and God leaves you with the one you love the most (yourself), there is no one left to blame BUT YOU. (Psalms 101:7-8, Proverbs 26:24-26, Psalm 106:43, Psalm 55:23, Proverbs 13: 22)
This whole “favor ain’t fair” people in the world say is totally untrue. God grants favor to those who love and serve Him with a whole heart. It’s not just being passed out to those who aren’t walking in accordance with the will of God (Psalm 5:12). Favor is constant, lasting, and ongoing and it comes with a constant, lasting and ongoing devotion to Him. You can’t have one without the other. You can’t constantly fight against God’s correction in your life to clean up the old things in you that He is not pleased with but, expect to continue to receive His grace – this is exactly what God spoke of when He spoke of the people in Psalms whose hearts were stubborn – you know what He does with those people? After a while, God will give you over to yourself and let you do you (Psalm 81:12)…and I mean let’s be honest, if you could do you so well, you wouldn’t have come running to God in the first place (Ecclesiastes 10:3).
Let go. Accept the correction. Go through the discipline process. Let God do the work He wants to do in you before He renders you ineffective within the Spirit as you operate and feed your flesh. This season is not a season where God is going to beg anyone to come to Him. He is surely separating the wheat from the chaff and just because you dress up like wheat or you connect to wheat doesn’t mean God won’t recognize you as the chaff you are (Matthew 3:12). Seriously, only a dog returns to the vomit – and so do we when we taste the goodness of God but return to the world because we don’t want to endure discipline (2 Peter 2:22). The road is narrow ohhhhh but it’s so beautiful, peaceful and secure over here (Deuteronomy 5:33, Psalm 23) God wants to heal you of all the bondage, pain, and the scars of your sin and yes, healing can hurt but certainly not as much as reopening a wound and digging it deeper by following your own will. Remember:
Favor= Correction. Correction= Discipline. Discipline= healing, trust, peace, joy, and all the fruits of the Spirit if you receive them. (Hebrews 12:11, Romans 5:1-5, Galatians 5:22-23)
I am a living testimony – to this very minute in my life my testimony is still being written and I could tell you some things that would make you say “I don’t blame her for giving up” BUT I REFUSE!!! What a boring story my life would be if I had not endured the things I have! Because of these things the testimony God has given me is powerful! However, heeding His correction and allowing His discipline in my life makes the deliverance all the more powerful! Now, the power He is instilling in me is even greater! But it all started with me surrendering all and accepting the discipline and correction I had to accept from Him.
I pray you heed and receive this word for those who need it. May God add a spiritual blessing to you and grow you in His word, His will and His way that you may be pleasing to Him in all you do and that you may be able to endure until the end so you can stand before Him with confidence and receive the due reward for your faithfulness and not the condemnation that comes with rebellion. In Christ Jesus Name I pray, “I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light so that you can understand the confident hope he has given to those he called—his holy people who are his rich and glorious inheritance.” (Ephesians 1:18) Amen and Selah.
I share this song as a portion of my testimony…. don’t imitate or be amazed by what you see of me today, it’s not me you see, it’s God. Yes all of it every bit of it is Him. Even my heeding and accepting Him is HIM because my flesh still battles with wanting to go its own way and do its own thing. Don’t look at the finished result and think it has been easy for me….. you don’t know my story – even when I tell you a portion, you still don’t know the whole story and if you did you’d understand why I love Him so. *sings* “Oh God has been faithful to me, He promised He would never leave me! My story proves that God can use me! My story is my TESTIMONY! You don’t know…… my story…..”
But my story is not important, what’s yours? Will it end is a crown of righteousness or the shame of condemnation?